I recently heard Joyce Meyers say in one of her teachings that an angry Christian is a oxymoron. Did you see that episode? She hit it on the head with that one lol. Atleast for me. I was an angry Christian recently, and that realization was an AHA moment. I thought I had moved beyond the phase in my life where I was easily angered and offended. However, not that day, I let offense creep in when I wasn’t paying attention. My feelings got the best of me.

It was a Tuesday afternoon. I was sitting at my desk. While looking through my emails, I realized that I had to pick up my mobile order at Sam’s Club. I totally forgot about it (yep mom brain). I was supposed to pick it up yesterday. If I didn’t pick it up, it will be returned back to stock. My son was running low on diapers. So i went ahead and planned to pick up my kids from school and daycare and head to Sam’s Club.

By the time i finished work and got them, It was already early evening and Sam’s Club was crowded. Something I didn’t take into consideration before I left home. While looking for parking spots, I circled around continuously. You can only park in certain stalls for mobile order pickups. The time of day I was there was also a busy time. I didn’t want to have to take my children out of the car. I was supposed to pick up my order while they were in school. But I didn’t write it down to remind me to pick it up earlier. Let this be a lesson to write down your To Do List lol.

I got tired of circling around repeatedly. I was just wasting gas. I was also tired from work and mentally exhausted. I still needed to feed my kids dinner and get them to bed. I decided to park and go inside and get it. I was already frustrated. And as you moms know it can take long to take out your kids and get them in the store. But I had to do it or risk running out of diapers. I figured I am already here, just go inside and pick it up. So I proceeded to do so. I went to the location where the mobile orders are. I wasn’t rude, but I felt like I shouldn’t be in there. That section was for mobile orders. The worker looked at me and said ” Oh sorry you can’t be in here”. I kindly let her know I’m sorry. I have a mobile order to pick up. I can’t find any parking stalls open right now. I figured I would just come in here and get it. She helped me. She was nice and although they were busy I appreciated that she took the time to help me.

Once I got my order I headed back to the car to put the kids in and head home. We had to eat dinner and get to bed. I need to get up at 4a to spend time with God and work on my business before my 9-5 job. So i admit it, I was rushing. I wanted to hurry up and get home. I knew there would be traffic on the freeway. I hoped it wouldn’t be too much. I hate traffic. But who doesn’t right. I was proceeding to get on the freeway. I sped up to try and get in front of the car next to me. He didn’t want me to get in front of him so he wouldn’t let me in. The lane was a merge lane so I almost banged him, or he almost banged me. Honestly we both acted a fool trying to get in front of each other.

Luckily I slammed on my brakes because if not i would have banged him. It made me so angry that he wouldn’t just be kind and let me go. Like he would rather get into an accident then let me in. Really! I tried to stare him down so I got next to him. He was not interested in looking at me. I was almost ready to beep my horn and maybe even flip him off, when the Holy Spirit stopped me.

The Holy Spirit nudged me to realize that i was acting like a jerk, and I backed off. I was reminded that my children were in the car. I was also reminded that my actions were not appropriate. A girl who wants to show the love of Jesus should act in love and forgiveness. Another lesson to you and me lol. Don’t end up in my situation where you are rushing and then wind up inpatient. Pray immediately, which is what I should have done before I left the house. Be careful for the devil is always looking for someone to devour I Peter 5:8.

I had to repent and ask forgiveness. I did, and instantly felt the peace of God wash over me. I am so thankful to have that peace. As a parent my kids are learning from my actions. I want them to be kind and humble. I can’t expect them to be if I am not.

I love the Lord with all my heart and soul. I don’t always act the way I should, but I love God. I used to be an angry Christian. That girl is not the girl I want to be for my children or my husband. Its okay to go through trauma and to have wounds, but always be striving for better. Better for yourself, and better for you family. After all, you are who they look up to, even when we don’t know it.

Hope this lessons helps you as much as it did help me. My test is also my testimony for others so Praise God for the teaching and the teachable lessons. Love you all!